Breathe in, breathe out.
That's what I've been having to do over the past few days everytime some says "OMG! Your wedding is around the corner!! How do you feel??" LOL. Truth be told, I feel WEIRD. Why weird? Because you don't really know what to expect. Almost like the day before your first day at work, or the day of a first date, or...... the day or weeks leading up to an event you've never experienced before that is soley surrounding you. Can you think of anything? Maybe a birthday party but it's still not even the same bc on THIS day - you are promising GOD that you will stay married to THIS ONE person for the rest of your LIFE no matter what! On THIS day, you are wearing a dress you have dreamed of wearing your ENTIRE life, a specific dress you've had fitted to PERFECTION & still probably feel fat in. On THIS day, you have planned, and planned, and planned EVERY detail - the placement of every flower, the sequence of every song, practiced walking down an aisle, etc, etc, etc..... that makes THIS day so very different than anything you (SHOULD) ever experience.
Thinking past the typical, "I'm excited!"...........
I am so very anxious! I HATE being stared at and the center of attention... so Wedding Day will be incredibly nerve racking for me! I'm worried I will trip at some point during the day in front of EVERYONE! I'm worried that I will say the WRONG thing in front of everyone!
I am incredibly in love with the idea of marrying a man who is so incredibly wonderful to me, who was truly sent to me by God, who LOVES God and LOVES me with all of his heart..... I am in love with marrying a man I love! I'm in love with sharing my life with someone who is as awesome as he!
I am jumping up and down in anticipation of wearing this gorgeous Pronvias gown ALL day!!! Along with my BCBG shoes, my birdcage veil... THRILLED about my birdcage veil fascinator and I absolutely cannot WAIT to see the look on Thomas' face when I appear at the end of the aisle in all of my Wedding Day glory!!!
I am sooo ready for January 18th... All of the stress & planning of that ONE day will be OVER!!! And, we can finally start to live a life that is NOT consumed with anything wedding - besides getting pictures & video back! Along with opening awesome gifts!!! ((THANK GOD FOR THE BLESSINGS!!!!))
I am in party mode. READY to rush to the reception and have my first dance to a song I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!!!! OOOH! It's going to be incredibly amazing....
I am in full PICTURE MODE - OMG! I cannot WAIT for the photo shoot with my friends! It's going to be sooo much fun! The groomsmen, bridesmaids, best men, maids of honor, & of course my GROOM - it's the most anticipated time of day for me! Pose for the camera.... Now CLICK, CLICK!!! I'm sure there will be flashes going off ALL day which is cool... wondering if I'll feel like the papparazzi is after us but I'm also excited to see all the pictures everyone took from the big day! THAT will be cool!!!
I am blessed. I believe that I have snagged an awesome man & together we have truly learned the definition of what being "together" really means. I am sooo glad that I am marrying a man who believes in God and who is truly a man after God's heart, who goals to honor Him, & bring Him glory. Above all of his accomplishments and beautiful characteristics - that is what I am most proud of.
All in all... I'm ready to be a wife. SOOO, ready to be a wife. I'm preparing and learning how to be THOMAS' wife. It's a life long journey that I'm sooo ready to begin......
I feel honored. I feel blessed. I feel special. I feel chosen.
